Tumblr messages is fucking up again, this is for a buddie, you know who you are
(another reason why I hate having to use the phone.)
I’m really sorry buddie, I thought you needed space when you didn’t reply so I left it for a couple of days so I went on your page to check if everything was okay and I can see it’s not.
I know you’re going through a real shit time and I can’t really say or do anything to make you feel better at all, I can’t say it’s going to be okay right now because losing an important you’re close with like that is going to hurt and the fact that it’s your second time is even worse, I’m sorry for a lot of things and even when you’re at your lowest or when you feel alone, I need you to know you’re not.
Even if we’re not at the same place at the same time and I can’t support you by giving you a hug or just being in the same room, I’m here for you and it’s good to feel the ache because it means that you actually cared for someone other than yourself and that’s a precious thing.
I know all of this is just going to get worse from here on out and you most likely feel that you have to deal with this by yourself but you really don’t, when you’re ready reply back to me but I just want you to know that it may not be looking good right now but it will in the future, I know it’s cliché to say that things are take time and I know you still haven’t recovered from the last time, but the painful feeling will go away, not completely but that just reminds you that the person existed and that time you spent together did happen. I know you’re probably reading this and thinking how it’s a load of shit, I know nothing I say right now is going to make a difference but please don’t feel like you’re alone in this. That person isn’t gone yet and you don’t have to think about the funeral just yet, but it’s good to feel sad and let it out please don’t hold it back. I love you and I’m here.